I wish he knew

• How he's the first guy that I trust. 
• He's the first guy that I've hugged. 
• He's the one who gave me the definition of "Friday nights" 
• He makes my heart jump out of my chest when he's near. 
• He makes me teary when I haven't seen nor spoken to him in weeks 
• How pathetic he makes me feel 
• How much I worry for him 
• How long replies turned to short replies are crushing me 
• How I like the way he has to bend down to talk to me 
• How he finds me in crowded places
• How I find him in crowded places 
• That his voice is so soothing 
• How he never rolls down his sleeves 
• How he's the first person to give me butterflies 
• Because of him, I knew the feeling of hurt 
• Because of him, I knew the feeling of disappointment 
• How I hate that he's on pre-paid 
• How much I'd love to tell him something random throughout the day, but I won't in fear that I'll be a bother to him 
• How he's the perfect height 
• How cute he is when he still eats regardless of being full  
• How much he's scaring me
• How I hate every goodbye 
• How I get jittery with every new conversation 
• How thankful I am to meet him again
• How I like the way he teaches me or shows me something
• How I question myself everyday whether I should hold on or let go 
• I still remember the first day we met again 
• How close I am to just grabbing his hand. 
• How he caught me staring 
• How he can read my face 
• How my friends act so cheekily around us 
• How I have the songs that he's sent to me on my Ipod 
• How he makes me feel safe
• How all these feelings are bottling up inside of me 
• He's an idiot
• How I hover around his name online 
• How he's an unpleasant winner

• How freaking important he is to me, and I'll have to move mountains to let him know.